Punky in Love
Arinu goes to campus everyday; she passes in front of
Punky’s house. Without Arinu’s realization Punky always gives attention to her.
He always hopes that Arinu knew about it. Punky is a cute and charming boy but
his style extremely ‘punk’. His spiky hair, piercing and tattoo always looks in
his appearance. Arinu realizes that there is someone who always appears when
she passes in front of a certain house a long the street when she is going
home. Finally, they know each other, but just give a smile to each other; there
is something not that mean between them.
Punky always wants
to see Arinu’s smile everyday. The girl also gives him a smile when she met.
Day by day, Punky is in love with Arinu. One day, they met in a long street when
Arinu were going home. Punky said that he loves her. Arinu Shocked and wanted
to run away from there as soon as she can. Actually she has a traumatic with a
boy like him, her ex boyfriend is died because of influences one of his junkie’s
friend.
“Rinu” I call her
name when she passes in front of my house.
I do glad when I see her. It is like seeing an angel that makes my
feeling always feel better.
“Yeah” said her
with her beautiful smile.
I know her name from one of my friend that actually Arinu’s
neighbor.
I don’t know what I
feel. I always remember her face with her nice smile when I go to sleep. We
never have a talk anymore, more over face to face. I don’t really know about
her but I feel so empty when a day not seeing a single smile from her. Her
smile is like a drug of me.
One day, I see
Arinu, she is walking alone in her way. She usually is picked up by her brother
or her father. She sometimes rides a motorcycle. This day is unusual. I
approach to her with the whole of my dare. I feel so trembling, my heart beat
faster suddenly. I take a deep breath then I call her directly,
“Rinu”
“Hi” she replies my
calling.
“Just walking alone” I try to talk to her, with a little
question.
“Yeah, you see by
yourself” she said.
“Hmm, where’s your
father or brother?”
“I don’t know, no.. no one pick me up” she answers it.
“Hmm, I…I…..I…..” I
feel so hard to find some words.
“Hi. What do you
want to say?” she tries to ask.
“Emm, I like you from the first time I know you;
moreover you give me back a smile". “Rin, you make my world turn to the
another side”
I can say the words slowly.
“What? I don’t
know, emm..I don’t understand what you said” she little bit cries.
“Ok, listen to me, I’m….in love with you, I want you to
be my girlfriend. I know you don’t have a boyfriend right now” I try to fix
her.
“OH NO!! I can’t believe what you said. I can’t….sorry…..give
me apologize”. But she can’t accept, she shocked I think.
“Why?” I ask
“I need much time to understand what happen in my life recently”
she makes me disappointed.
She was walking faster and went far from me. Someone
picked her up and she disappeared from my view.
I’m still here, just stand here alone, in this street. I
just stuck in this moment. I can’t think anything. I feel my heart is gone, I
don’t hurt my heart. I don’t feel my heart is broken. I don’t know what I feel,
I can feel nothing.
“Punk”
“Punk”
“Hello????”
I think someone calls
me, I don’t know who, and I just stuck and stand here.
“Punky!!!”
“Punky??? Hello???”
I don’t know who
call my name, I just feel so empty. I can’t do anything. I heard someone
calling my name, but I can’t reply the call.
I try to walk step
by step, I feel so hard to step. I come to my house, entering the room and
lying on my bed in my room. I watch the roof of my room, it is dark but I can
imagine her smile again. Then I go to sleep.
I hold her hand; we
walk together till her house. I’m so glad and I want to do this moment again
and again. She smiles for me when she’s entering her house and waves her hand
also.
“Oh my ghost!!...What!! I’m just in this bed?? Oh no…I’m
just dreaming, it is just a dream.” Arinu came on my dream only.
“Punk” A soft voice
calling me.
“Yes mom”
“Would you like to
accompany me, to go to supermarket?” she said.
“Ehm…Yeah… OK…I will mom”.
“Thank dear, let take a bath and prepare yourself. We
will go there at ten” My mom makes me always feel better.
“Yes, mom”. I have not taken a bath some days recently.
I take my “NINJA” from the garage out; I go to a
supermarket with my mom. I help her to take many kinds of things in the basket.
I like coffee much; I will find some of instant coffee drink as stocks at home.
“Mom, I wanna go there”
“OK Boy, what do you want?” she asked.
“I want some coffee”
“Yes, please” my mom agreed.
“Well, just waiting for me in the cashier, mom”.
I walk, try to find some coffee. I do like “vanilla
latte”. I always enjoy it in the morning and in the night with my friends and
with some cigarettes. I love that moment.
“Ouh..ouch!!!!” a girl cried.
“Sorry, I’m so sorry. I’m in a hurry and didn’t see you”
“Hmmm…never mind” she said.
I heard familiar voice. “What!! You!! Oh my Ghost
Rinu!!??”
“Yes, I am. You??!! Mr. Punky, ha??!! I apologize about
that past event.” She shocked also.
“Emmm…I know, I will be fine. Hi! What are you doing
here?”
“I find some coffee; my stock at home was empty.” She
answers.
“Oh yeah??? Do you find some coffee also?”
“Oh my can was hit on the floor” I remember.
“May I help you?” she said.
“OK” with my pleasure.
I bring that coffee
to go to the cashier, my mom was there. Rinu like coffee much too. She finds
her favorite coffee by herself. And I get her number. I’m very happy along this
day. I can’t imagine that I can meet her in that place. I do happy get her
number; I have her number, her number. It’s surprising me.
I want to call her
as soon as I can. I really want to hear her voice. Actually, I’m still
confused, why she gave her number for me. She doesn’t love me, she refuses me,
she said sorry, she can’t be my girlfriend, but why she gave me “this”. I don’t
know, I only feel, I only know that I’m happy now.
“HI!! RINU!! HOW ARE YOU??”
……..sending
message
I wait a replying message from her all day long, just
look at my phone as often as I can. It makes me so confuse. I know no replying
massage anymore from Arinu. I will try again. The next day I try once again.
“HI!! WHAT R U
DOING, BEAUTIFUL LADY”
…….sending
message
“HI!! I’M JUST
LISTENING TO MUSIC RIGHT NOW”
…….her
replying
I do happy, finally she replies my message.
“CAN WE GO TO
SOMEWHERE, SOMEDAY?”
…….sending
message
“WHAT?? I DON’T
THINK SO.”
…….her replying
“HMM…NEVER MIND.
BTW
WHY DE U GIVE UR
…….sending message
“I JUST WANNA BE UR
…….her replying
“OK, THANKS”
…….sending message
I feel little bit disappointed
about her last message, but no problem. I will be her finest, charming and
beloved friend of her.
Now I know Arinu
more. I m glad and feel so peace when I talk to her. She is a beautiful, really
beautiful actually and kindnest girl that I ever known. She told to me someday
that she is afraid has a friend like me firstly. It is caused her past event,
her boyfriend died. He died because using drugs over dozes. Her boyfriend has a
junky friend and he gets influence of him. Rinu do worry that I am a junky
also.
…..some weeks
later……
That was a nice
Saturday night, I invite Arinu to go to my house, I have a little party.
Actually I just want to share my happy feeling to everyone, especially for
Arinu. She told that she was sad so much. She was remembering her boyfriend,
she told she miss him so much.
I also invite my
friends to go to this party. We do some events like watching movie together,
karaoke together and have a dinner. We play game also. In this party, there are
about fifteen persons. They are my friends from school and from my punk
community. All of them are good friends of me. They always support my
activities. We are like a big family. They know that actually I really like
Arinu.
They support me to get Arinu, they want that we have a
relationship like boy and girl. In this moment, I want to tell to Arinu that I
really love her. I want to ask once again to her to be my best girlfriend.
“Arinu Rasima” I
call her softly
“Hmm... What’s
wrong?” said her.
“Please sit down here” I ask her to sit on the nice chair
in the center of main room in my house.
“Wait a moment; I will do something to make you know
more what I feel.” I say to her.
“What do you mean?” she asked.
“Rinu ….just wait and see” I firm.
“Well, up to you Mr.Punky.”
__
“ONE!!!” I cried.
Then, the room becomes dark, there is no light anymore.
“Arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh… I am afraid in the
dark room” cried Arinu.
“Just see, wait and stand there, don’t worry” I try to
calm her frightened.
“TWO!!!” I cried secondly.
Then there is a big screen in front of her. I play a
video. There are many Arinu’s photographs. She never knows that I often take
pictures of her. I think she never realizes that she really make me like a
fool. She becomes my most important photo object in this several months.
“OH GOD!!...She cried loudly.
“Is the girl me? Are those my own figures? I never know
you do that.” She is surprised and little bit appear a little smile in her
face. I can see her smile in the little glow around her.
“Yes, of course Arinu, that’s you, no one is like you” I
reply her ask.
“THREE!!!!”….I cried thirdly.
Then in the wall of that room, one by one, some small
lamps light on. All of them in the ocean blue colour, that’s Arinu’s favorite
colour. Those lamps make a shape, a single phrase exactly. “Be My Princess”
that the phrase. I hope she love that lamps. I do hope she has a feeling like
what I feel.
“My dear Arinu” I say to her softly and I feel little
bit trembling.
“Punky..I don’t know, I can’t imagine. I don’t think you
did all of those” she was surprised.
“Don’t you know? I do love you. Once again, I beg to you
to be my girlfriend, to be my princess of my only heart. You are the one and
only. You are just the chosen one of my heart”. I try to reveal what I feel.
“Punk….I know you have proved it. But…I do sorry, I can’t
answer right now. I am just a friend for you. I regard you as my best friend.”
“I don’t think so” I just cant belief it.
“Please give me a time to think, this is about feeling.
I can’t accept u if I can’t love you all the way”. Arinu try to explain to me.
“OK, I will understand. I know. I don’t really well for
you. I am just an ordinary boy, a punk boy with all my appearances like this.
Tattoo, piercing, spiky and coloured hair, I’m not a college student also. I
love you with the whole of my heart. Don’t you know that your smile is my whole
world?” I m little bit hopeless.
“I don’t know, I can’t answer anything. I know what you
feel, but give me time to think”. She confuse I think.
“Well….I will wait for you, next to weeks, in the end of
this year, in the night of new year. Come to the city park, we will watch fire
work together. Don’t forget to bring what I gift for you.” I try to give a
chance for her, but actually I do wish she will come there.
She just keep silent, she doesn’t say a word anymore
along the street I brings her to go home.
I think she has a feeling to me, but she really hesitate
and has not a feel like what I feel.
I pass a week, lost contact from her. After that moment,
that one Saturday night in the December, I never send single massage anymore to
her, phone her, and moreover just see her when she passes in front of my house.
I realize it’s so hard to do and I’m torn but I have to do. I extremely longing
for her. It’s make me like a fool and stress.
I try to find something to do what I can do. Doing
photography makes me better. Like usual I always search unique object of my
photos. Arinu is my special object. She becomes the most interesting object
recently. I always waiting for her appearance and get her picture. There are
too many photographs of her in my room. My camera always accompanies me to get
many kinds of picture, I just love doing photography. I don’t study it
formally.
In my unconscious, this day comes. I do glad, but
extremely worry. Will she come? Will she bring that? Will she want to be my
princess? Will she consider me as her boyfriend? Too many questions appear in
my mind.
I know that she really like watching fire work and using
bracelet. She likes to listen music and watching movie also. Her favorite
movies are drama and fantasy film. But she can accept all genres of movies.
Talk about her favorite music she extremely dislike underground and punk music
that actually my favorites.
Arinu is a kind girl; she is so beautiful in my whole
eyes. I know her since she graduated from high school. I never expected she
become one of important one in my life. I never suppose we can know each other
well. She is a religious girl but me; I’m like this with all of my bad habits.
I really understand if she can’t accept me all the way.
I go to the city park after night, it’s about seven. I
go there with some of my friends. I ride my motorcycle. I use the best clothes
to see her. I wash my body and use my best fragrance. Oh, I do love to do these
habits recently. My friends till amazed knowing me like this.
I don’t think she will not come. I just have a faithful
she will come to me. She will be my angel all the time. She will do the best
that she can do.
It’s nearly in the midnight. It’s so crowded here. New
Year will present soonly and the fire work will be launched. I will always give
up waiting for her coming.
“Beep beep..beep..beep..” something entering my phone,
it’s a message. I hope it’s from her. I am trembling and my heart beat faster.
“WHERE ARE YOU??”
It’s really from her. Oh my ghost. I do happy. Thank God.
“NEAR THE BIG
TREE IN THE CENTER OF THIS PARK”
…..sending message
_A few minutes later, I can’t wait to see her_
“Hi!! Punk” I hear a familiar voice.
“Hi!! Rin. How are you? I do miss you, I miss you so
much my princess. I know you will come, come to me finally.”
“I can no longer be here” she said to me.
“Oh yeah, why not?” I little surprised.
“I am with my brother; I must come home before one a.m.
I promise to my father.
“OK, I know”. I do happy she comes. I can’t explain what
I feel.
“Yeah, I will be your beloved girlfriend” she said that.
I can’t believe it.
“OK, Mr.Punky. I go home now. Be careful, and don’t
forget to send a massage if you are home.” She said the sweetest words.
“OK, be careful too Arinu. Thank for your coming and the
best “answer”. Love you much.”
Arinu is amazing. I can’t imagine she really come to me,
although we can’t watch the fire work together. She also wears the bracelet
that I gave for her last two Saturday night in my party.
I really happy too many times this day. I know that love
needs sacrifice. My pleasure has come. I want to say thank to God. I will be a
better man. I promise with my whole heart.
“RIN, LET’S WATCH
A CONCERT NEXT SUNDAY”
……sending message
“WHAT KIND OF CONCERT???”
…….Her replying
“SLANK, MY SWEETHEART, I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT”
…….sending message
“OK, I WILL CONSIDER”
…….her replying
“THANK MY RINU”
…….sending message
“HMMM….LOVE YOU”
…….her replying
“LOVE U TOO”
……..sending message
She makes my world turn to the other side. I know, she
never asked me to do something that I can’t do it. She understands me more than
I know. I think she is really a gift from Heaven to me.
I will buy a “CD”,
I think she will love it. I find ‘My Chemical Romance album, the newest album.”
Danger Days: the true lives of Fabulous Killjoys”
Oh Rinu. You are so
different of all the girls I’ve ever known. You are my precious lady; you are
just the one that makes me crazy.
“Rinu!!!!” I call
her in front of her house.
“Yeah, wait a
moment; please come in my house first” she said softly
“Are you ready to
rock this night?”
“Punk…my father gives me permission. So I will do the
best that I can do.” She explains.
“Dear, don’t worry
about that. I try to fix her.
“OK, let’s go to
the concert” she little bit cries.
It’s really full of
people here, especially punk communities. I hold her hand and go to the tribune
to wait for watching the concert. My entire friend just see us and they smile
for us. Thank for all my friends. They also watch this concert, but they are in
festival part.
In the middle of
this concert, “Slank” sing their nice song “Satu”. I do love this song, it’s
represent the whole of my heart to Arinu. I give that CD, My Chemical Romance,
the newest album. She always smiles all the time. She said that she love me
with the whole of her heart.
A part of these lyrics are:
“Apa jadinya aku bila kamu tak ada
Tanpa kamu ku bukan apa-apa
Dan a a aku sangat butuh
Dan a a aku ingin selalu kau sentuh
Cuma kamu yang bisa memahami ku
Cuma kamu yang bisa memahami oh egoku
Aku, kamu, satu”
We go home before the concert was end. I know it’s
really hard to go out from there. But I can do that just for Arinu. The most
important one is Arinu arrive at home safely.
We always share everything, we love watching movie
together sometimes I give her an ice cream and bring that to her campus. She
was really surprised and little bit ashamed. I like that face when her face
turn to be red. She will more beautiful
Now I can be a better man although my appearances still
like a punk boy. I always say thank to the God for giving Arinu for me. I will
prove that I’m not like what she thinks firstly.
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